WHAT WAS GOD THINKING?

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Did you ever question God?  Wonder to yourself Why ME? Blame God for your circumstances?

We hear it all the time.  People give up on God because something happens in their lives that they can’t explain.  Some tragedy hits them that they find unbearable. They give up on GOD because he doesn’t seem to meet their IDEA of who He SHOULD BE.

Over the last 5-6 months, my handicapped youngest son and i have both individually and jointly suffered through the most trying times of our lives; medically, mentally and spiritually.  That is saying a lot because both myself and my son have suffered a great deal in our individual lives and in our family.

I have never seen my son suffer such pain and torment.  In and out of the hospital and urgent care frequently with no resolution and no explanation.  He was at the end of his rope and endurance. At the same time, I was dealing with my own medical issues, pain and suffering while carting him around and doing my best to keep him nourished, hydrated and as comfortable as possible.

It seemed like every time there was the appearance of improvement… fresh symptoms, new pains, more questions.  My son first lost his taste for food and then his appetite as he struggled to keep water down.

I was in so much agony it hurt to even speak. I struggled to keep up my prayer habit but finally found myself unable to pray at all.  I was too weak to put in the work it takes to post.  I quit trying. Wondering what was going on and why, I began to feel like I was coming to the end of my life.  I really thought I was slowly dying.  There were days when the pain was so excruciating I prayed that if it was my time that it would come quickly.

I have been walking by Faith all of my life. Which does not meant that I have not fallen into sin.  On the contrary.  God always has loved me, even when I am unlovable.

I have been baptized and filled with the Holy Spirit nearly 40 years.  I KNOW that God is in control and well able to get us through whatever we must suffer.  My faith in God did not fail, but boy the struggle to get through the day was almost unbearable.

I really thought that God was moving me on to some new ministry.  He does that.  My life has been a series of adventures with HIM.

I was not feeling inspired to even look at anything to post. Apparently, I was just too exhausted. I was wondering if it was the end of my online presence.

I tell you all of that to help others to see that even when we are walking with GOD to the best of our ability, serving him and others, we still go through trials and troubles.  Lord knows I have had my share of those throughout my life.  BUT GOD, (my favorite phrase) ALWAYS walks with me and NEVER fails to see me through. He always provides ALL THAT WE NEED.   Not all that we want or would like.  BUT ALL THAT WE NEED!

Christians have been led to believe that once they pray that prayer they will be on easy street.  Blessings will follow them all the days of their lives.  Well, the blessings’ part is true, though sometimes it may not feel like blessing.

We don’t always know the purpose for our suffering any more than we know the true value of our blessings!  God ALWAYS has a purpose in everything.  In fact, usually multiple purposes.  There is no way to know who or how many other people are being blessed by the things they observe happening in our lives.  Or who or how many lives are affected.  All we can do is TRUST GOD.  All things wll be understood in the end.

Galations 4:1-7

1Now I say, That the heir, as long as he is a child, differeth nothing from a servant, though he be lord of all; 2But is under tutors and governors until the time appointed of the father. 3Even so we, when we were children, were in bondage under the elements of the world: 4But when the fulness of the time was come, God sent forth his Son, made of a woman, made under the law, 5To redeem them that were under the law, that we might receive the adoption of sons. 6And because ye are sons, God hath sent forth the Spirit of his Son into your hearts, crying, Abba, Father. 7Wherefore thou art no more a servant, but a son; and if a son, then an heir of God through Christ.

Romans 8:12-17

12Therefore, brethren, we are debtors, not to the flesh, to live after the flesh. 13For if ye live after the flesh, ye shall die: but if ye through the Spirit do mortify the deeds of the body, ye shall live. 14For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, they are the sons of God. 15For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father. 16The Spirit itself beareth witness with our spirit, that we are the children of God: 17And if children, then heirs; heirs of God, and joint-heirs with Christ; if so be that we suffer with him, that we may be also glorified together.

I often wondered about that phrase “if so be that we suffer with him, that we may be also glorifies together.  But, I am pretty sure that is the reason Christians suffer.  I think it is pretty safe to say that all Christians suffer something in their life.   Perhaps abuse and torment from nonbelievers due to our faith, perhaps the tragic los of a loved one in a horrible accident or to some heinous disease, or beastly addiction, or dreadful murder or suicide.  Perhaps we ourselves suffer spousal abuse, rape, torture, homelessness, emptiness, rejection, or abandonment.  Whatever we suffer, we do not suffer it alone!  Praise God!  Just as Jesus had the love of the Father and the comfort of the Holy Spirit, because He paid the price for us… we have the same power with us.  We can choose to tap into that power or not.  It is up to us.  God will love us either way, because we are His children.

We are coming into the last days.  The reign of the Anti-Christ will be the worst time that ever was or ever will be.  That is what the Word of God says.  If you think about some of the worst times throughout history and what that implies…it is scary.So, I want you to come to the place where you not only KNOW that GOD is well able to get you through, but you KNOW how to tap into the power He has made available to you.

I hope you find the rest of this post encouraging and uplifting.  I watched these videos over the last couple days, as I am coming to what I hope is the end of this temporary suffering.  

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Based on the New York Times bestseller, this is the story of a man who comes back to life after a terrible car crash, trusting in God to survive.

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In Mark 5:1-20, Jesus and his disciples arrive in the region of the Gerasenes, where they encounter a man possessed by an impure spirit. This man lived among the tombs and could not be restrained, even with chains. Jesus commands the unclean spirit to come out of the man, and the spirits enter a herd of pigs, which then rush into the lake and drown. The man is restored to his right mind, and he begs to follow Jesus, but Jesus instructs him to return home and tell others how much the Lord has done for him. 

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Sep 28, 2021 · A famous atheist still mourning a death in his family suffers a tragedy that leaves him clinically dead, forever changing his views on God.

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4 Therefore seeing we have this ministry, as we have received mercy, we faint not;

2 But have renounced the hidden things of dishonesty, not walking in craftiness, nor handling the word of God deceitfully; but by manifestation of the truth commending ourselves to every man’s conscience in the sight of God.

3 But if our gospel be hid, it is hid to them that are lost:

4 In whom the god of this world hath blinded the minds of them which believe not, lest the light of the glorious gospel of Christ, who is the image of God, should shine unto them.

5 For we preach not ourselves, but Christ Jesus the Lord; and ourselves your servants for Jesus’ sake.

6 For God, who commanded the light to shine out of darkness, hath shined in our hearts, to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.

7 But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellency of the power may be of God, and not of us.

8 We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair;

9 Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed;

10 Always bearing about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our body.

11 For we which live are always delivered unto death for Jesus’ sake, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our mortal flesh.

12 So then death worketh in us, but life in you.

13 We having the same spirit of faith, according as it is written, I believed, and therefore have I spoken; we also believe, and therefore speak;

14 Knowing that he which raised up the Lord Jesus shall raise up us also by Jesus, and shall present us with you.

15 For all things are for your sakes, that the abundant grace might through the thanksgiving of many redound to the glory of God.

16 For which cause we faint not; but though our outward man perish, yet the inward man is renewed day by day.

17 For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory;

18 While we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal.

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